What is going on..?

Hey, there :)
It was pretty hard not to give up working today...You know, sometimes, you wake up and understand, that there is smth wrong...Is it inside or on the surface... you clean your teeth, eat sausiges,open the door, step out of your block, buy Virginia's tobaccos, walk across the street...you do everything that is common and easy, but realise, that you're doing it not as welll as always, smth is not OK... People are looking at you in a different way, "what, am I freaky or what?" I woke up, and caught myself on a feeling that I'm sick, but I was OK, may be I'm dangerously in love...I'm in love with the girl I even don't know...but this feeling poisons every moment and drops you in a spin of incorrect conclusions, actions and talks. It would be so great if I could jump out of my body and have a look on it with a different sight.Frankly speaking, I'm fed up with the road, that I cross right now, I do want to turn somewhere on a highway...OK...no, I would ruin alll this shit, and build everything for new...but I'm afraid...it's deep inside, you see it every time you come closer to a dicision...That's why I have a question, when and why do you feel a need to change...whatever it is? Do you tremble or what?

Playback

- Hm....honestly...it was a hot day...Like in that song! I opened my eyes in the morning and thought, that it would be fucking great to have a remote-control, that could rewind some hours back... I have a clear confidence that this device would be very popular! :) Or pretend, you have a play/pause, erase buttons on it... you just push erase, and your girlfriend will never prove, that you had sex "with that little bitch"...it's a precious thing I insist!!!- So...Moscow...morning...freezy...people...tonns of them around, they run,run,run... I run too...but feel myself like in that video,when everybody move fast and only one person in this crowd is shown in real time...that's so egoistic but I do like to pretend myself that way...
- Work...I'm late...I'm so late....Yesterday my friend wrote about such things...when you are in a hurry, you become another man: rude and angry on this world, everything around changes... seems as if the whole universe is against you: " ...this fucking bus goes too slow...move up...I said push that fucken button and move faster...hey you, what are you looking at, you are first time in metro...hurry...just calm down, look strait, make a deep breath and get out of my way...don't you see that I'm late...you don't...If I had time I would...Aaaah...go to hell. fuck...fuck...I don't know how much time it is...it just a bracelet, I don't wear watches...yes it is hard...fuck...no, I don't, I'm just standing in front of the door and staring around...of course I go out on the next stop...what...how did you call me...aaaah....*phone ringing*... yes...yes...I'll be in a minute...I was in a jam-up....yes...no I don't...I do appreciate your time...but...yes...no I won't...ofcourse...yes at 12:00 in your office...yes I will...OK...Goodbye....*another one*....yes...in a minute, I'm right here...only 2 minutes passed...yes...I'll do my best...Bye...*one more time*...*mother calling*...Hi mom...that's all right...yes I can talk...I can...what do you want...WHAT?...you phone me to ask how am I...I'm OK...but I hurry...I'll call u later...yes I will..I won't forget..no I won't...YES...Bye...I said G-O-O-D-B-Y-E...is that clear...Aaaaaahhh...Hi is she here...thanks, yea - fucking traffic...2,5 hours...I was boiling up every 5 minutes...wish me luck... I'm here...yes, everything is done...here you are..."- Evening :)...14 february...Valintines Day...ZZZZZzzzzzziiiip...."YOU WHAT? you break up, what do you mean quit...but why??? I do devote time to you...not enough...sorry...I'm so sorry, that I have a job - is that what you want to hear...Aaaaah great...yes, just go...Yes I'm so OK, I've never been so OK, if I had a huge trunk on my head I would be 1000 times more OK, than now...GO...I need whiskey...you don't have any place for me...whatever...you don't have too...aaaaah....is there a bar, where lovers haven't reserved all tables...NO?...nevermind...Oh that's a luck....I'm so happy to find some place to relax...bring me double whiskey with ice, and coffee... beer...you have only beer...OK menu please..."
I L-O-V-E L-I-F-E ,
I D-O L-O-V-E P-E-O-P-L-E

Fist one...

Hi there!!!
That's nice to talk with right here! Come over and feel yourself comfortable... This is my new blog, where I'll have an opportunity to find myself on this "lonelу planet"... No matter who you are, I'm really glad to see you here and I do appreciate time, that you spend on reading this message...so let's rock...
I want to show you my world: tiny and huge, interesting & boring, black and white, strange and ordinary & blah-blah-blah in the same moment...
Several ideas about me:
- Name - Yura or Jeorge, if you are english-speaking (that'll be easier for u)
- Hometown - I'm not sure, that's why: Sevastopol-Moscow-St.-Petersburg (blood-at the moment-soul)
- Age - 20
- I feel myself - "loking for smth"
- Interested: travelling, business, photo, work. cheptrips, hunting, new experiences, love & etc...(you know), new people (mean those, whom I meet, not making myself new ones), cars (yes, I'm a boy), handwritten letters, blogging, sex, psychologies, hot-news, history, journalism, Siriya, sea... and everything, that I'm incredibly interested, but can't remember right now...
I plan to post in this blog facts and lies about me, people around, ideas that print in my mind,words that were & were not said...

All in all join me now, and I'll do everything to make our communication full of new themes to dicuss :)